[ The second time? Yuta’s entire body cringed with his wince and he held onto Toge and Maki even tighter. The second time - his backup plan - ]
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[ and Maki sounded so defeated too, and - ]
I had to make a terrible choice, Toge. I’m … [ his voice hitched but he took a deep breath and soldiered on; ] I’m sorry. Maki, I - to both of you. If - if I can change it when I go back, I will, to beat him the first time … I’m sorry that I couldn’t, Maki. I … Toge, I’m.
[ Does it kill him, becoming that kind of monster? Or is he then stuck that way? Did Maki know? And, god, was there any way he could actually remember when he went back, so he could win the first time? ]
[ Gojo losing? Gojo lost? Shit. He doesn't know what they're talking about, not really, but he's glancing between them. They got Gojo back, he knew that. Yuta told him. But none of them had wanted to think that Gojo would...
Shit. Shit is right. He's just...slumping slightly.
It's not good to know that other people they care about die. That Yuta is fighting Sukuna in Gojo's place that's...
Yuta might die.
Toge, for himself, is rendered speechless. The best he can do is raise his hands slightly as though he's going to say something, but he can't. He doesn't know what to say. He's afraid to ask what the contingency plan is. ]
[ Yuta squeezed his arms around them tighter, but Maki's right, he nodded. ]
It doesn't. You're - you're both still here. And I'm here.
[ His throat felt tight, eyes burning. ]
And - if I get sent back - I promise. I'll do everything I can to change things if I remember anything at all. If it's even possible, I'll try, so ...
[ Another shuddering breath; ] And even if I forget, I promise I'll come back. I'll always come back here, to both of you. Please believe me. I'll stay with you here forever - so - please, don't ... don't worry about me ...
[ He's trying to reassure them both, but he felt like it wasn't really working. But what else could he say? ]
[ Things at home don’t affect here, that’s true. Toge knows this. They’re here, that’s true enough, but he’s still concerned.
He’d like to ask more questions, but Yuta seems to be falling apart, and from how Maki scooped him up, he thought she might be close to the same. He leaned forward a bit to wrap his arms around Yuta. ]
Takana. [ Toge whispers softly. No. He doesn’t understand, but offering comfort regardless is something he can do. ]
We agreed as long as we win in the end, it's worth it. [She'd agreed, but she hadn't been happy about it, not that any of them were happy about any of this. But it's different here, there's a different level of anger over everything they've had to sacrifice. She shifts slightly, moves until she's a little more between both Toge and Yuta.]
And of course you'll come back, idiot. You know we're waiting here for you, whether you remember it there or not.
[ Yuta held them both tightly - and as tense as he was, as upset by the idea he failed was - he didn't cry. He's not going to. He refused. ]
[ After all, whether or not he remembered - he had to be strong enough to win. Even if it's by becoming a monster, he had no other choice. ]
[ Eventually, holding them like that, the tension would leave his shoulders a little. He hadn't cried at all, but his voice was still rough all the same while he apologized; ] S-sorry for falling apart like that, guys.
[ Toge is still in the dark and it’s annoying, but the fact that Yuta is falling apart means this isn’t the time to ask. He can ask later. He hugs Yuta back with one arm, just giving him a squeeze. ]
Takana. [ Toge whispers to him. It’s okay, he can fall apart if he wants, he’s just confused. His confusion doesn’t outweigh Yuta’s upset.
His other arm goes around Maki’s back, there, he can hug them both at once. It’s good for them. ]
[ Maki knows Toge is likely confused but putting it into words right now isn't what needs to happen. She's just glad to be here with Yuta in his proper body. She does lean into the hug just a little. ]
I'll explain later. [It's not really something Yuta should have to do, after all. ]
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Date: 2024-07-31 02:49 am (UTC)[ shitshitshitshitshitshitshit ]
[ and Maki sounded so defeated too, and - ]
I had to make a terrible choice, Toge. I’m … [ his voice hitched but he took a deep breath and soldiered on; ] I’m sorry. Maki, I - to both of you. If - if I can change it when I go back, I will, to beat him the first time … I’m sorry that I couldn’t, Maki. I … Toge, I’m.
[ Does it kill him, becoming that kind of monster? Or is he then stuck that way? Did Maki know? And, god, was there any way he could actually remember when he went back, so he could win the first time? ]
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Date: 2024-08-03 07:06 am (UTC)Shit. Shit is right. He's just...slumping slightly.
It's not good to know that other people they care about die. That Yuta is fighting Sukuna in Gojo's place that's...
Yuta might die.
Toge, for himself, is rendered speechless. The best he can do is raise his hands slightly as though he's going to say something, but he can't. He doesn't know what to say. He's afraid to ask what the contingency plan is. ]
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Date: 2024-08-03 05:01 pm (UTC)But it doesn't change anything here, right?
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Date: 2024-08-05 03:10 pm (UTC)It doesn't. You're - you're both still here. And I'm here.
[ His throat felt tight, eyes burning. ]
And - if I get sent back - I promise. I'll do everything I can to change things if I remember anything at all. If it's even possible, I'll try, so ...
[ Another shuddering breath; ] And even if I forget, I promise I'll come back. I'll always come back here, to both of you. Please believe me. I'll stay with you here forever - so - please, don't ... don't worry about me ...
[ He's trying to reassure them both, but he felt like it wasn't really working. But what else could he say? ]
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Date: 2024-08-13 02:38 am (UTC)He’d like to ask more questions, but Yuta seems to be falling apart, and from how Maki scooped him up, he thought she might be close to the same. He leaned forward a bit to wrap his arms around Yuta. ]
Takana. [ Toge whispers softly. No. He doesn’t understand, but offering comfort regardless is something he can do. ]
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Date: 2024-08-13 02:44 am (UTC)And of course you'll come back, idiot. You know we're waiting here for you, whether you remember it there or not.
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Date: 2024-08-14 06:56 pm (UTC)[ After all, whether or not he remembered - he had to be strong enough to win. Even if it's by becoming a monster, he had no other choice. ]
[ Eventually, holding them like that, the tension would leave his shoulders a little. He hadn't cried at all, but his voice was still rough all the same while he apologized; ] S-sorry for falling apart like that, guys.
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Date: 2024-09-02 05:18 pm (UTC)Takana. [ Toge whispers to him. It’s okay, he can fall apart if he wants, he’s just confused. His confusion doesn’t outweigh Yuta’s upset.
His other arm goes around Maki’s back, there, he can hug them both at once. It’s good for them. ]
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Date: 2024-09-20 11:59 am (UTC)I'll explain later. [It's not really something Yuta should have to do, after all. ]