Bakugo had been given the chance to tell him that happened. He hadn't. And if he's fair, he isn't innocent. He just isn't. Neither of them are, but Bakugo knew the rules from the date before. Had even told him he hadn't been trying to ruin things or separate them. That behaviour doesn't seem like that makes what came out of his mouth the truth.
Shoto shakes his head. "I'm not. I don't want to be. You didn't know it was me."
He could let that slide, but if Shoto gets a better picture of the truth later, he will be mad at him.
He told me before we kissed who you were. We had already talked about it though, and I care about him a lot. I love everyone I care about. I agreed to still kiss him, even if we hadn't spoken. I would've spent more time with him too, because we were on a date and he seemed like he could use a friend if nothing else right then, but he chased me off.
Shoto would be mad. Toge is not incorrect about that. That's a lot of typing, though, and Shoto stares down at it. His eyes skim over it once or twice. If it was before he knew, Shoto might've been able to deal with that, they had been pulled apart and comfort is just not something you shouldn't disagree with someone seeking. But this sounds entirely unlike it. At least from Toge's side.
Toge taps his finger idly on the table, a sign that he's thinking it over. It's not a straight yes or no answer, which he knows might be strange, but he wants to give Shoto a proper one.
I don't know about in love with him. Our relationship hasn't been romantic before. I do have strong feelings for him, and I'm happy for our relationship to take whatever form it does. I know that's not a straight answer, but it's how I feel. If Yuta approached me, I would give him the same answer.
Our relationship has been romantic from the start, but if you just wanted to be friends with me, or didn't remember me, that wouldn't have stopped me from loving you. I'm content either way. But I do know I probably shouldn't have done that. So I'm sorry. I have no excuse for it.
Shoto doesn't want these words in his head either, he has to live with the knowledge that they craft. The understanding of what they mean and the confusion that it takes the form of for him.
Shoto replays what was on there, looking down at the words. He's read it because it's important and he wants to dedicate his thoughts specifically on not seeing red over something he doesn't have to see red on. "I'm don't need you to excuse yourself. I told you a long time ago I wanted your honesty and you're giving that to me." Now, if he likes it or not? That's a whole other story. "Am I understanding right that you're saying you love everyone equally?"
Toge won't make an excuse for his actions, but he does feel bad about it. He probably shouldn't have done it, but he'd wanted to at the moment. He presses his lips together slightly.
Kind of, something like that. It's not like I'm sorry I'm not dating other people because I was dating you. I don't wish I was with someone else or anything like that. I was very happy with you, and still would be.
Shoto would never ask for excuses, either, just honesty. That's all he wants and that's what he's getting. Like it or lump it, it's what he's getting. Asking for honesty is something he understands may get that sort of response.
“Was?” Shoto repeats, quieter this time. He watches Toge’s expression like he’s trying to read the silence between words. “I know you said would be, as well.”
His voice is steady, but there’s a thread of something careful beneath it, like he’s testing how much truth he’s allowed to touch or navigate. “Did I misunderstand that? You don't see it like that anymore?”
Toge sighs and leans back a little bit, resting his head against Shoto's shoulder as he thinks about it for a moment, because he thinks usually when he's misunderstood it's his own fault.
We've been apart awhile. I don't know what you want...how to navigate that. That's kind of a different question from if I love people. I love you, but that doesn't mean you owe me a relationship if you don't want to. I don't know how you've been.
Shoto shifts just enough to hold him when Toge leans back, one arm settling around his waist without hesitation. "I didn’t know you thought we weren’t together," he says quietly. "I kept thinking we were apart, not... finished."
He doesn’t try to meet his eyes. He just lets the words settle between them. "That wasn’t fair. I never said what I meant, and I can’t expect you to hold onto something I never made clear." Shoto sits with that for a moment, then adds, "I want to know you again. If you’ll let me. We can take it slowly to find what we both want again. It doesn't mean I don't love you still."
Toge shakes his head and moves to put his hand on Shoto's chest to stop him. It isn't that, he just wasn't sure. Maybe that's his own insecurity at play, but all the same, he's glad to hear it.
I wasn't sure. It's not you, I wondered if you would change your mind that's all.
Yeah, that's all him, he knows it.
I love you Shoto. I'm very happy to be your boyfriend if that's what you want.
Shoto keeps his arm around Toge, eyes resting on the hand pressed to his chest. He doesn’t move away. He just stays close, quiet, trying to make sense of what’s shifted without letting it take back what he offered.
He still wants this. That part hasn’t changed. But he hadn’t realized they weren’t on the same page until now, and starting slower suddenly feels more necessary than gentle. He looks still into the other man's eyes after reading. "Of course I want that, but I didn't realize... Yuta felt very similar when it came to who he felt strongly for. Is this something your world has this sort of view on?"
All Toge can do in the face of the question is shrug lightly. He isn't exactly sure.
I don't talk to a lot of people, including Yuta about this. Dating isn't an option for me, if you forgot. It wasn't ever going to come up, one way or another.
I'm worried you're taking it the wrong way. It's not anything about you and I don't need another romantic relationship to be happy. I've always been happy with you.
Shoto is worried about a lot of things, but until that moment taking something the wrong way wasn't one of them. His eyebrows knit together, not angrily, but sincerely curious as he asks. "That means a lot to hear. I'm not minimizing that by asking if the opportunity presented itself, what would you want to do? I realize it's hypothetical, but I want to understand. I don't want to misinterpret."
What, if someone asked me if I wanted to date them while I was dating someone?
The thing is, yes, he kissed Katsuki on the date and had a very nice date - but he wouldn't have agreed to the date in the first place, had he known Shoto was his version of Shoto.
That depends on the person I'm with. If they expect me to be faithful, I would respect their wishes. If they don't mind, I would probably date both, in some version where two people actually wanted to date me.
Toge's skeptical this would actually happen. Neither options diminishes how I feel about the people in question, just what form our relationship takes. I'm happy with whatever form it takes. I don't have a lot of people to worry about here.
Shoto is trying to sort it out. Trying to figure out what he wanted to do, what he needed to do. What he doesn't want to do is limit Toge and Shoto is assuming if he said that he could be what he's calling faithful, that it may be something that crosses the man's mind. Even if it's not something Toge thinks can happen. "I see." it isn't tinged with anything or on the heels of being angry, he really is just trying to understand. "Can I think about it later? I'd like to let myself have time with it, and if I'm sincere, I just want to be happy with you."
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Date: 2025-04-15 08:05 am (UTC)It's alright if you're mad at me for it.
He did kiss Bakugo back, so it isn't like he's innocent, even though he hadn't reconnected with Shoto yet.
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Date: 2025-04-15 08:42 am (UTC)Shoto shakes his head. "I'm not. I don't want to be. You didn't know it was me."
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Date: 2025-04-15 08:48 am (UTC)He told me before we kissed who you were. We had already talked about it though, and I care about him a lot. I love everyone I care about. I agreed to still kiss him, even if we hadn't spoken. I would've spent more time with him too, because we were on a date and he seemed like he could use a friend if nothing else right then, but he chased me off.
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Date: 2025-04-15 09:06 am (UTC)"You're in love with Bakugo?"
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Date: 2025-04-15 09:12 am (UTC)I don't know about in love with him. Our relationship hasn't been romantic before. I do have strong feelings for him, and I'm happy for our relationship to take whatever form it does. I know that's not a straight answer, but it's how I feel. If Yuta approached me, I would give him the same answer.
Our relationship has been romantic from the start, but if you just wanted to be friends with me, or didn't remember me, that wouldn't have stopped me from loving you. I'm content either way. But I do know I probably shouldn't have done that. So I'm sorry. I have no excuse for it.
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Date: 2025-04-17 06:45 am (UTC)Shoto replays what was on there, looking down at the words. He's read it because it's important and he wants to dedicate his thoughts specifically on not seeing red over something he doesn't have to see red on. "I'm don't need you to excuse yourself. I told you a long time ago I wanted your honesty and you're giving that to me." Now, if he likes it or not? That's a whole other story. "Am I understanding right that you're saying you love everyone equally?"
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Date: 2025-04-17 06:56 am (UTC)Kind of, something like that. It's not like I'm sorry I'm not dating other people because I was dating you. I don't wish I was with someone else or anything like that. I was very happy with you, and still would be.
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Date: 2025-04-17 07:25 am (UTC)“Was?” Shoto repeats, quieter this time. He watches Toge’s expression like he’s trying to read the silence between words. “I know you said would be, as well.”
His voice is steady, but there’s a thread of something careful beneath it, like he’s testing how much truth he’s allowed to touch or navigate. “Did I misunderstand that? You don't see it like that anymore?”
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Date: 2025-04-17 07:29 am (UTC)We've been apart awhile. I don't know what you want...how to navigate that. That's kind of a different question from if I love people. I love you, but that doesn't mean you owe me a relationship if you don't want to. I don't know how you've been.
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Date: 2025-04-17 07:49 am (UTC)He doesn’t try to meet his eyes. He just lets the words settle between them. "That wasn’t fair. I never said what I meant, and I can’t expect you to hold onto something I never made clear." Shoto sits with that for a moment, then adds, "I want to know you again. If you’ll let me. We can take it slowly to find what we both want again. It doesn't mean I don't love you still."
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Date: 2025-04-17 07:54 am (UTC)I wasn't sure. It's not you, I wondered if you would change your mind that's all.
Yeah, that's all him, he knows it.
I love you Shoto. I'm very happy to be your boyfriend if that's what you want.
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Date: 2025-04-17 08:46 pm (UTC)He still wants this. That part hasn’t changed. But he hadn’t realized they weren’t on the same page until now, and starting slower suddenly feels more necessary than gentle. He looks still into the other man's eyes after reading. "Of course I want that, but I didn't realize... Yuta felt very similar when it came to who he felt strongly for. Is this something your world has this sort of view on?"
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Date: 2025-04-17 09:12 pm (UTC)I don't talk to a lot of people, including Yuta about this. Dating isn't an option for me, if you forgot. It wasn't ever going to come up, one way or another.
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Date: 2025-04-18 02:10 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2025-04-18 02:13 am (UTC)Toge admits a little openly, lightly concerned.
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Date: 2025-04-18 05:54 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2025-04-18 11:24 am (UTC)The thing is, yes, he kissed Katsuki on the date and had a very nice date - but he wouldn't have agreed to the date in the first place, had he known Shoto was his version of Shoto.
That depends on the person I'm with. If they expect me to be faithful, I would respect their wishes. If they don't mind, I would probably date both, in some version where two people actually wanted to date me.
Toge's skeptical this would actually happen. Neither options diminishes how I feel about the people in question, just what form our relationship takes. I'm happy with whatever form it takes. I don't have a lot of people to worry about here.
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Date: 2025-04-22 07:56 am (UTC)